It has been a long time since I hav written here. Glad to see it is still available to do so.
So much has changed since I last wrote on this blog site. I had just moved six months ago to a new city and was so looking forward to the new things ahead.
Funny how life throws curveballs when you least expect them. One minute everything is fine, the next you have no clue...
The move went great, no problems at all. I like the new place and new city I'm in. But things are always changing, I really should remind myself of that more often.
A couple months after we got here we adopted two cats, both females. Summer and Rayne are their names. They are pretty and soft and fun to play with, as most cats are. They are tearing up the carpet though, I am sure I can already say goodbye to the $500 pet deposit I paid when we got them :(
A couple months ago I got up just like any other day and signed on to work (it was a Tuesday).
First thing I see in the IM window was my supervisor telling me to call the new manager of operations. I had never spoken to him before, had no idea what the call was for, she did not tell me. So I called.
My contract fot this company I worked for for 9 and a half years, was immediately terminated. One minute I am employed and the next I'm not. Just like that.
It really took a couple of days for the reality of it all to hit. It has been a rough road since then and so much is uncertain. I don't even know if a month from now I will have a place to live. From day to day I dont know what I will be eating, or if there will be anything ... I am learning, again, to do without much of anything.
So far, no matter what I've tried, it is not helping. Tons of job applications filled, resumes sent, and hours and hours on the internet looking at the job search engines I signed up with. The only people really wanting to get back to me are the scammers, MLM stuff where they want money I don't have and cannot pay me a steady wage for any work I do. I am more than willing to work hard, any hours I can get any place. But given my physical deficits its harder than it would be for the normal out of work person. True, I dont have small kids anymore and thats a good thing, but finding something I can handle physically seems to be elusive. I have a strong work ethic and can be an asset for some company, this I know. It's just finding that company willing to take a chance on me, its hasnt happened so far.
Evenings are filled with fear, of not knowing what is to come. Asking myself what if's, a lot.
This isn't someplace I thought Id be at 48 with a partial disability. Unemployed, broke and not eligible for unemployment checks. Its a scary place to be, trust me, I know. I have more time now, to write, guess I should do so... just because I can...at least until I lose my internet connection.
