Random stuff...

So, I look at Bob a lot now. My brother gave him to me a week ago. He swims around his ten gallon tank all day and basically doesn't do a whole lot.. Oh the life. I would love to not have a whole lot to do for days on end, but then I'd probably get bored too, in like 2 days tops
Bob's day is highlighted at 6:30 in the morning.  I feed him then and he swims around excitedly. Goldfish really don't have much to do in a day. Mostly he swims back and forth and occasionally I hear a little blop as he hits the top of the water with his goofy looking fish mouth. At first I thought he was trying to escape or something, but I really doubt it. I mean, where would he go? Except to his death as he flops out onto the top of the dresser and then onto the carpet below.  Would I even notice right away? Doubtful, I get lost in work Every day and don't notice many things going on around me. Bob would be dead if he got out. But I often wonder; what does he think about all day long just swimming back and forth in that tank? He is the only fish in the tank, does he get lonely there all by himself? Or, is his thought process even evolved enough to think in terms of loneliness? Who knows what a goldfish thinks, or if it even thinks at all... No, I wouldn't want to be Bob after all.

I have seen a lot going on lately that bothers me. I mean at work mostly, so I really shouldn't go into details about these things.I only bring it up because I have come to the decision that it will be better for me to be ignorant of these things. People and things I object to, or want to understand more about...that's all fine but I have decided it might be better if I focus on my own job instead. Mind my own business really. So what if I think that my boss is being robbed by another employee, I can't prove it so...why say anything?  Ethically, I really do believe in looking out for things and saying something to my superior at work when I see things happen that are in my view wrong.  I guess that is the problem, its MY view and what I see as bad may not be so bad to another person, especially if I can't back it up with facts anyway.  So, leaving it a lone seems to be my best option here.  
I do feel that I have a strong moral sense of wanting to do what I feel is the right thing in any given situation.  But is my doing the right thing seen the same way by others?  Am I seen as meddling where I really don't belong instead of looking out for things?  I don't really know, and I think that, unless I want to face the answer, good or bad I should just back off and put on my dark shades and go about my own business instead.  So, that is what I have resolved to do about what is currently bothering me.
Maybe too, its a bit of self-preservation going. If I focus on my work and do as good a job as I can each day and stop looking at others, doesn't that show how serious I am about helping my company be the best it can be?  I think so. I could go and put lists of pros and cons and decide that way but I think in this case, I don't need to do that.  A lot of times that is a helpful way for me to decide on things but not needed this time around. I think it will be the right way in the long run,  that and I still sort of think that if something is wrong it will get figured out eventually and I won't have to be involved when it does. Not endangering me at all that way.  Doesn't mean I agree with it this way, or even like it but I still feel like its going to be the thing to do.

Maybe I worry too much about what other people think about me, but then, who doesn't want the approval of the people they spend everyday with?
I know I do want that approval, and that in the past, I have made it a hard thing with some of the people I work with.  I try to do what I see as the right thing but not everyone else sees what I do and say as the right thing too. Everyone is different. My problem I guess, is that while I am in the middle of something I don't always see how it can be a problem for someone else, reporting a problem or something done wrong at work for instance.   My view is that I want to have a problem corrected so I tell my boss about it.   My thought is that my co-workers see me as a snitch or something, that they are the ones who get into trouble for whatever it was that I told my boss about.  That wasn't what I was going for but it is often the end result. But then, if the boss discovers something wrong and I leave it alone..even knowing it was wrong...I get blamed for it just like everyone else when he sees it. If I saw the problem I don't want to be blamed for it and have it reflect negatively on me.  Most of the time when I see a problem, or something being done incorrectly, I know who is doing it. BUT that doesn't mean I give names when I discuss it with the boss. Maybe that is what others think, but I don't.  And when someone gets into trouble the person who was doing it wrong or whatever looks at me directly as the problem as to why they got into trouble or were reprimanded or whatever.  So what then, do I just let it go on until a customer sees it and discontinues using our services? Cal me crazy but I'd rather that not happen.  Keeps us all in a job if we look after things, regardless of consequences to others.
I've said before and will say again, I believe in treating others as I would like to be treated.  So if they perceive that I am treating them badly by reporting a problem that gets them into trouble, am I really doing the right thing?  I have my doubts but I also have my principals as well.  A strong sense of right and wrong and sometimes that over rides my need for approval by my peers. Good or bad, that's just the way it is.

Ok, I've talked that to death, you probably think, do what you want I don't care lol.