Got this really odd mood that has come over me today.  Why? I don't, because I get more thoughtful and creative when I listen to music maybe. Because there are so many things going on that I have a lot on my mind, not sure. Probably just a little bit of everything all in one.
Thanksgiving is two days away, and it will be the first one Ive had without my mother in about 10 years, and even then I only skipped one when I was living in Omaha.
Things change, and I tell ya what, I don't feel like I will miss her this year, that's the odd thing. All the usual suspects will be coming to my place this year instead of OUR place (mom's and mine). She didn't want to make the trip down from Sac.  And I get the feeling its all going to be a lot more fun without her.  Yea, that sounded mean didn't it? But, she has gotten to the point that she judges me on EVERYTHING I do, don't do, or think or anything that I feel like maybe I will have more freedom to just be ME for a change, without worry.  Contemplating getting drunk this holiday too, haven't been drunk in years. But then, there is the fact that I have to work at 6AM the day after too.  Should be an interesting holiday if my sister doesn't get snowed in at home, I want to have fun with her and get goofy.
Other than that I've just been thinking about a lot of people I've known over the years.   Oddly, though, I don't keep in contact with almost any of them now.  Back of the mind I wonder if it was something I did to drive them away or...just time passed and we all just moved on.   Not spending a lot of time worrying about it though.  But thinking of some the people and things we did for fun is nice.
Work doesn't even bother me right now. I put in more time than I should, as always but its okay.
I somehow get the feeling that the coming year is going to have a lot of change involved in it. Probably a bit of both bad and good and a lot of adjustment on my part.  I don't usually do change very well.
I do see a lot of things that look promising about now too. Just a feeling really and I hope it lasts a long long time.